I have 2 more days until its back to work. This spring break has basically sucked. We didn't go anywhere fabulous and the weather has been windy and chilly. I did go to Raleigh yesterday and eat at one of my favorite restaurants, Sweet Tomatoes. It was yummy and mostly vegetarian. Today I think yard work is on the agenda. I am hoping tonight might be a date night with the husband. Why don't men realize us women need to be wined and dined sometimes?
I completed week 1 day 2 of c25k yesterday. It was easier than day 1, which was extremely encouraging! I am thrilled to be running. Three days a week I work with a trainer in a group setting, and 3 days a week I do Zumba. All of this exercise makes me feel fantastic. For the first time in my life I am: 1) exercising and enjoying it, and 2) doing something for myself and sticking with it. This is HUGE for me! I must give myself a pat on the back. I have come to realize this fact: no one is going to take care of me, I must take care of myself, then others can begin to love me, after I start loving myself.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
I have always wanted to run a marathon. When the trainer at my Biggest Loser made us run, I thought, "I am too fat to run". I tried, though, because not trying would be embarrassing. Ladies older than me were running, fatter than me were running, so I just started running. It wasn't so bad, other than jiggly parts and my sucking wind, I ran as well as all the others. And I felt good! I remember when I ran as a teenager I felt free and now I feel that same freedom again. So I decided to download a C25K podcast and I ran week 1 Day 1 today. It about killed me, but I did it and it felt great! My plans are to continue with the program and run a 5k late summer or early fall. I can't wait!
Sunday, March 25, 2012
I have now completed 2 weeks of the Biggest Loser program at my gym. I think I have finally found an exercise program that works for me. I am a social person and I need others to workout with. I am making friends and we are encouraging each other. I am accountable to a group of people and that is just what I need to motivate me. At the age of 44 and obese I am now running (jogging). I didn't think I was in any shape to run, but when the trainer said to run, I did it! Wow! Amazing. It makes me feel like I can do anything. I have attended 2 Zumba classes as well. We are not required to attend extra classes, but are encouraged to. I was doing Zumba thinking how proud I am of myself! I feel so much better about myself now that I am taking care of ME.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
I know it has been a while since I have blogged. That is because I have not been doing well in any area of my life, especially in my commitment to get healthy. I haven't gained or lost any weight, which I know is way yay better than gaining during this difficult time. I appreciate the fact that I have worked hard at just maintaining until I got my self together. I am ecstatic about joining the Biggest Loser at the gym. My gym membership had expired and I have not exercised since summer. In the mail I received an advertisement for this 36 week program. I went this past Wednesday and joined on the spot. I will meet 3 times a week for an hour with a coach, agree to record my food intake in a journal, and be weighed periodically. I have never committed to anything like this before and it feels wonderful. Usually I start to dread any commitment because I fear failure and then hate people knowing I've failed. But not this time! I am going to be a Beast at the gym, an Amazing Beast! I have a wedding to go to in 12 weeks and I will be seeing lots of people that I haven't seen in 3 or 4 years and I am so excited to have that as my first goal! To lost weight, buy a new dress, and look fabulous! Happy Sunday Everyone!
Sunday, January 29, 2012
I have had a very rough week. I teach elementary school and I have 7 students that are extremely difficult behaviorally. Some feed off of each other, others are like oil and water and are always ready to fight each other. It has been like this since the beginning of the year, but for some reason these last couple of weeks have gotten worse and I am struggling. The stress has caused me to over eat and the emotional stress is causing exhaustion, so I am not cooking and planning well. I rested yesterday and today I grocery shop and plan for the week coming up so I will be ready. I have a meeting set up with my principal tomorrow to discuss getting some help with my class. I need to start exercising even though I am exhausted because I know that will help with the stress. Here's hoping for a better week!
Sunday, January 22, 2012
I was reading another persons blog and she talked about her crappy childhood and how it caused her to be the adult she is today, including her overeating and weight issues. I also had a crappy childhood: I dealt with abandonment, anger, alcoholism, and poverty to name a few. I know these issues made me who I am today. I would have to say that the over riding feelings that harmed me the most as a child were not feeling loved or taken care of. As an adult I find myself doing the same thing to myself. I do not love myself or take care of myself the way an emotionally healthy and secure adult woman would naturally do. I learned early on that my needs don't matter. Others selfish and abusive needs mattered more than me. Sometimes when I look at myself from an outside perspective I think, "why are you doing the same thing to yourself that the adults in your life did to you when you were a child". I am an adult now and have full control over the way that I treat myself and I also have full control over the way I allow or don't allow other adults to treat me. I need to start treating myself with love and kindness and respect. And it starts with taking care of myself and loving myself enough to eat healthy and take care of my body.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
I have not done great yesterday or today. I eat great all the way up through dinner, then those night time munches kick in. I am very disappointed in myself. I have over eaten two nights in a row. I must find a way to stop this now before I regain all the weight I've lost. How do others deal with late night eating?